I will go to Alcosebre finally! It’s so cool. It’s the first time I compel myself to do something for MYSELF which implies a certain effort to obtain it. Tomorrow I will go to my dreadful doctor, and I will force her, armed if necessary, to discharge me from my sick leave. That’s also a step forward, since it will remove from my mind certain mental anchorages to all what happened to me lately. In addition, I’m going to be with my parents in Alcosebre, and I’m going to be able to give them back some of the lot of affection that they have been giving me during this anxious year. And, to make to make things even more perfect, I’m going to be able to talk directly, face to face, with an important part of my present and past. Though my intention is to chat a lot, but to think not very much.
I will have to suffer a very long and hard ride, and I don’t know if I will have the sources to survive alone the weekend, hehehe, but I really don’t give a damn. I’m going to make a different, emotional thing, something not too much planned... How I want not to think at all!
Hmmmm, I think this is the first time I have written "hehehe" in this blog.
BITCH - MEREDITH BROOKS
I hate the world today
You're so good to me I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your health, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous,
and I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing
Just when you think you've got me,
figured out the season's already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do,
and don't try to save me
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer,
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numbed, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
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